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Day February 16, 2013

Hat Index February 16th 2013

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Daily affect data February 16th 2013

For detailed description of parameters see the Data Methods part of this website

Stoicism: Grin and bare it = 6

Mood: felt calm = 6

Control: A good deal of controll = 7

Discomfort: Moderate = 4

Metastasising epistemes

There are no straight lines only entanglements – of matter, thoughts, feelings, people, knowledge, things, transactions. These elements parameterise the project: it’s possibilities, visibilities and public manifestations. Metastasis is important both in its fullest material and clinical sense, and in its power of description of how this project imbricates and parameterises its subject. It’s growth.

As my disease develops it mirrors the death spiral of the wider economic and environmental ecologies within which it is situated. These bind to my disease producing complex assemblages that whirr away at the edges of my understanding. But they do need to be understood, which is one of the project aims, to articulate the metastasis.

On death and data

I have talked to many people with incurable disease, they often develop quite astonishing levels of medical understanding, becoming more aware of developments in research than their consultants. There is a heroic obsessiveness at play here a feeling that some mastery over the disease can be enacted by a detailed knowledge of it; through its indexing fetish this project shares that compulsion. This is not merely hubristic, recent research has shown that patients who are more engaged with of their disease do better than those who aren’t. There is also the macabre thought that the project will outlive me, it’ll still be there online, possibly even still producing data, at least in terms of visitor numbers.

So we can posit, that the project also touches on our attitudes to death and disease in a wider sense, namely a desire to find ways, processes and forms to transcend the act of termination and come to an accord with our feelings about it.